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I do not classify myself as a writer, deep down I just have a lot of thoughts that I feel the need to put out there. Originally, I intended blogging about my life outside of religion and what being a Muslim meant to me, finding the basic principle behind every experience and then relating these two things because in the real sense they can't be apart right?

It dawned on me that, writing that way would just be an expression of one aspect of my life. The one that wants to teach, impact and literally help you do the thinking so you'd get that behind everything that might seem complicated, there's a very very simple principle at work. I think it's basically first daughter complex😅. 

"Wouldn't that make it seem like I've got my life together", I thought. When in reality I am still trying to make sense of what this life is really all about. We are all out here hustling, struggling, trying to be a daughter/son, brother/sister, friend, partner, student, father, mother, neighbour, uncle/aunt. There's so many roles we have to assume that are non-negotiable at the same time trying to be the best we can be at all these roles. Phew! 

"Be the best you can be". 

"You want to blog, there's a lot of things you need to learn, what do you even know about writing. It takes a certain level of creativity to actually put content out there, so why don't you take your time to read books on writing and learn the techniques that would make you a better writer, now is really not the time for you to blog". I said this to myself countless times. Being a chronic procrastinator and a medical student, you guessed right, I didn't go far with my "learn new techniques" journey. 

"Just write it how it is, write it raw, write it the same way you would hold a conversation". Here's another thought, this one more frequent tho. Procrastinators are the worst type of perfectionists, I kid you not, so I naturally tried my best to not entertain this guy cause "what exactly am I going to write jor?" 

"Comparison is the thief of joy" 

This thought doesn't end there, it also tells me "look, it doesn't have to be like any body's writing, it doesn't have to fit into any criteria, it doesn't have to seem perfect, just do you...nobody has your perspective and even if they did, they wouldn't put it down the same way you would". I'm actually not out here telling you wake up and jumpstart and follow your dreams 😂 I'll leave that to the motivational speakers. 

I'll most likely talk about the struggle it really takes to tell your mind "shut up please let me think" 😭 because you would describe something better when you have had or you are having a first hand experience abi.

"There's light at the end of every tunnel"

So, here's my online diary👏. I genuinely don't know where this would lead me to. However, one thing I do know is that through every post and every word I write, I'm growing, learning and getting closer to where I wish to be and that's most important. 

Tell me what life feels like for you right now. I want to experience more of it through y'all 🥺🤩

This is how I feel and knowing that there's no emotion that is exclusive, I know this write up addresses more than one thing in my life, if you deep it 😀